You do NOT know my story! The anguish that consumed me..... But GOD.....He has been faithful to me. That is why this smile is permanent!
If you know me, and still wonder why this lady is always
smiling? It’s because I choose to smile and it looks good on me. I could have opted to look hurt and
defeated, to walk with my head down because life can be stressful and lonely. Sometimes, I
wonder why God allows me to go through what I go through. Sometimes I want to know if this thing will
ever work out for the best. The truth is, sometimes I wonder…..
But I choose to smile, no matter the defeat, and
mistreat, and failure. I choose to smile and have JOY! Because I believe with
all my heart, soul, mind, spirit, and bones that God is ABLE! He is all
sufficient, and kind. Because of who he is, I choose to smile.
In the words of this song; “You DO NOT know my story, the strongholds and
the walls that severed me.”
I have just a few real friends, and I intend
to keep it that way for a very long time; they are the ones who invest their
time and energy just for me. I’ve heard stories of people stating that their
friends are like family. I never understood it back then, but now I do. Because
my inner circle, my confidants are like family. They are the ones who will be
at my wedding, and genuinely be happy for my happiness and God’s favour for my life!
They are the ones I can call, sms at 4am in the morning. They are my flamboyant
cheerleaders; they are loud at times, beautiful all the time, wise most times,
real all the time and imperfect just like me. They are truly amazing.
I am a realist, and the truth is........The
only one who knows my full story is the giver of life. At the end of the day, I
seldom run to my real friends when I feel at the LOW LOW LOWEST. The reason is that living
in Christ is all I've know. I grew up loving the story of Jesus, that he gave his life for me and then, I found the
courage to run to him, because he is all I knew. And all I know presently... I
know that my friends are humans just like me, they go through some messed up
situations just like me; we are all a work in progress, they are the ones
who keenly trust in God’s promises just like me... It’s okay, and quite fine to
be open and run to your friends when you feel crappy, because I do.. And sometimes you just need to
verbalise how you feel; vent a little or a lot. But heyyy, do not end it there, run to
the saviour, never resort to your friends only. Always seek advice from the creator
of life. Pray and seek him whilst he may be found.
“As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are
you in my hand.” - Jeremiah 18:6 …. so, be still..... be still....
1 You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting
Be encouraged.














